Get empowered to choose health and make positive decisions
Day 1: I am totes onto this staying home thing. I could use a break. I’m going to garden and meditate and do yoga and just be still. Day 2: Houseparty! OMG that is a great idea for an app. I wonder how many people are on it……holy cow heaps. Great I’ll just give Kaz a call and go back to being shanti. Day 3: Wow who knew that 6 hours could be taken up on Houseparty. Hmmmm Ok back to being productive. First, I have to go to Officeworks and get a pad and pen. Crucial things here to …
Nicknames, I’m a big fan! Whenever I meet someone new whether they be work colleagues, friends or lovers, by the time that first meeting has ended, I have already endorsed them with a cheeky, fun nickname that I can endear myself to them by. It’s my thing! I too have been called many names in my life by many people. I didn’t even know my name was Lainie until I was 26 as no one ever called me it. Lobos, Lulu, Lanelle, Leisel, Chait, Burger, Lionel, Slag, Chaitskillz, Weenie,180, Paris and now Electro Girl. I love being called all of …
Walking through the familiar hallways, nostalgic corridors and unfamiliar streets of my life these days I feel myself surrendering to a kind of mindset that I have not yet allowed myself to experience. No it’s not the menopause mindset – yet! It’s the same comparable feeling to when I lie on my back at the mouth of the shore on the beach and just let the waves wash in and over me and then wash back to the ocean. The feeling of sinking into the sand underneath me with an underlying trust that I won’t be washed out into the …
I was recently part of a story telling night where the topic was ‘Fear and Loathing’. I thought hmmm should I talk about an ex-boyfriend who was a bit dark and sinister who would definitely fall into this category? Should I talk about a past employer that I loathed and feared a little that would have been the butter on the toast of this topic or, and this is going to sound mental but the topic that came up to talk about when I thought about Fear and Loathing was actually, myself – well not me as a whole person …
I just started to learn how to feel again. It came out of the blue. All this time I thought I was feeling because I was happy sometimes or sad sometimes or angry or hurt which by definition, are feelings! But due to an experience recently and some thought about this topic of what is a feeling, I came to the conclusion that they were just pre-existing emotional reactions to the things that were going on around me. Emotional reactions are created by feelings, but are they our current feelings or are they simply triggered by old memories which the …
I was walking through the park today and I was thinking about how hard I find it to make decisions. It can actually be quite paralysing at times as it’s not just about making the decisions but following through with them that I find difficult and I think this comes down to being afraid, hmmm maybe not the right word, this comes down to not wanting to make the wrong choice and then feeling trapped in such a way that I feel I can’t get out of the decision I have just made. When I thought about what the belief …
Once upon a time there lived a ballsy young woman who decided that at 28, after living on way too much of the wrong treatment and medication with side effects for 7 years, that she would take herself off the medication and find out what in fact was causing her brain to spark at random times like a New Year’s Fireworks show. I am 45 now and if you hadn’t worked it out, I am that ballsy woman that decided to step sideways from the system. In order to embark on this self-experiment, I started a journal shortly after the …
This post is part of the Epilepsy Blog Relay™, which will run from Nov. 1 to Nov. 30, 2017. Follow along! Hiding, embarrassment and isolation are things we get used to feeling and doing when we are dealing day to day with the realities of living with a sparky brain. It’s not the same for everyone though as all of us that are afflicted by epilepsy, have our own degrees of feelings surrounding these things. In my case, I let two of these things overpower me and convinced myself that hiding and being embarrassed was the best solution to adopt in order …
Memory loss and seizures from my experience
The world of dating when you have a seizure disorder can be ummm, well slightly weird, embarrassing, soul destroying, confronting, a blessing, messy, unpredictable, dangerous, infact this whole blog could be written on words to describe this experience but I’ve got more to say about the world of dating and sex so I’m going to leave it there. Let’s face it, sex and one night stands can be awkward at the best of times even for “normal” people but when you are trying to be sexy, alluring and seductive and instead of twerking you start convulsing, it’s probably safe …