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To win or not to win? That was the question!

I have just won an unfair dismissal case against a former employer. (April 2024) The case should have taken a few months. It took 2.5 years. I got fired because I made the decision in 2021 to buckle under the pressure of coercion and get the CONVID-19 vaccination. The reason behind me surrendering to inoculate myself was that my parents lived in the most “locked down” city in the world, Melbourne, Australia and I needed the evidence of inoculation to go and visit them. If I had waited 4 more months, that rule was overturned anyway. (Insert annoyed emoji here) …

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Relax, it’s not a seizure, I’m just excited!

Relax, I’m so not having a seizure, I’m just waving my arms in the air because what you said, did or felt excited me! I have found that I have had to hold space a few times in the last 12 months for people close to me when I have been in situations where I have heard something that has channelled me to make excitable gestures with my arms and face momentarily. After the excited gestures, I look at these loved ones and they look scared, the colour all drained from their spunky faces and they look like they are …

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Three types of denial

Denial. Hello old friend. I thought we’d parted ways amicably a while ago and yet, here you are again, stroking my hair, telling me it will all be ok if I just trust you. Denial. Every one of us is denying something for sure! It’s a thing that we humans have the capability of adopting into our daily practice. It’s all around us! We witness it everywhere. Whether it’s about ourselves, our loved ones or the state of the planet as a few examples, denial is part of our human experience, as a coping mechanism, I would suspect. A conscious or unconscious act we …

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Brave vs Coward

I had a friend reflect the other day about the one thing that she admires most about me. She said it was my bravery. “You’re very brave” she said “I’ve always admired that about you” “you never seem afraid to take life on”. As much as I was touched and even squirted a few tears (well as many as being on Keppra would allow due to it suppressing emotions), my first response to her was “As much as I love that you see this in me and as brave as I am, I am also the polar opposite of that. …

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Mutterings of an extrovert in lock down

Day 1: I am totes onto this staying home thing. I could use a break. I’m going to garden and meditate and do yoga and just be still. Day 2: Houseparty! OMG that is a great idea for an app. I wonder how many people are on it……holy cow heaps. Great I’ll just give Kaz a call and go back to being shanti. Day 3: Wow who knew that 6 hours could be taken up on Houseparty. Hmmmm Ok back to being productive. First, I have to go to Officeworks and get a pad and pen. Crucial things here to …

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Possessed by the Devil?

Nicknames, I’m a big fan! Whenever I meet someone new whether they be work colleagues, friends or lovers, by the time that first meeting has ended, I have already endorsed them with a cheeky, fun nickname that I can endear myself to them by. It’s my thing! I too have been called many names in my life by many people. I didn’t even know my name was Lainie until I was 26 as no one ever called me it. Lobos, Lulu, Lanelle, Leisel, Chait, Burger, Lionel, Slag, Chaitskillz, Weenie,180, Paris and now Electro Girl. I love being called all of …

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Performance Therapy

Walking through the familiar hallways, nostalgic corridors and unfamiliar streets of my life these days I feel myself surrendering to a kind of mindset that I have not yet allowed myself to experience. No it’s not the menopause mindset – yet! It’s the same comparable feeling to when I lie on my back at the mouth of the shore on the beach and just let the waves wash in and over me and then wash back to the ocean. The feeling of sinking into the sand underneath me with an underlying trust that I won’t be washed out into the …

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Fear and Loathing in…yourself

I was recently part of a story telling night where the topic was ‘Fear and Loathing’. I thought hmmm should I talk about an ex-boyfriend who was a bit dark and sinister who would definitely fall into this category? Should I talk about a past employer that I loathed and feared a little that would have been the butter on the toast of this topic or, and this is going to sound mental but the topic that came up to talk about when I thought about Fear and Loathing was actually, myself – well not me as a whole person …

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Learning how to feel

I just started to learn how to feel again. It came out of the blue. All this time I thought I was feeling because I was happy sometimes or sad sometimes or angry or hurt which by definition, are feelings! But due to an experience recently and some thought about this topic of what is a feeling, I came to the conclusion that they were just pre-existing emotional reactions to the things that were going on around me. Emotional reactions are created by feelings, but are they our current feelings or are they simply triggered by old memories which the …

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Look into my eyes

I was walking through the park today and I was thinking about how hard I find it to make decisions. It can actually be quite paralysing at times as it’s not just about making the decisions but following through with them that I find difficult and I think this comes down to being afraid, hmmm maybe not the right word, this comes down to not wanting to make the wrong choice and then feeling trapped in such a way that I feel I can’t get out of the decision I have just made. When I thought about what the belief …